Tonight, I am grateful for my “crazy”.

Yes, I have a duality inside me that rips and tears… I am happy; I am not happy.

I want to be a star; I think being a star is a selfish, egotistical desire.

I want to stay in my marriage and feel a lot of joy in it; I want to run from my marriage relationship as fast as my legs will carry me.

Duality. I see my narcissistic mind with its crazy thoughts of selfish desire… One step forward, one step back—and two steps to the side.

either side, it don’t matter to me…

But I see me