It has been quite a week.

It has been quite a life…

Today I overheard that a friend was at the brink, teetering at the edge—the precipice below calling out like sirens on storm tossed seas… calling lost souls to the tumultuous rocks with songs of peace from the abyss. I was grateful to see a handful of other friends actively calling him back from the edge, and family were on their way to help. Who knows the outcome?

I myself have experienced a tumultuous week. Well, it has been a tumultuous life. However, life is only what I am choosing to concentrate on… for whatever reason, I often choose to concentrate on the bare darkness before me—within me—the yawning infinite gap that plunges headlong into hopeless darkness and endless heartbreak… so deep that “Forever Love” couldn’t touch the edges where it could begin to fill.

And where does this heartbreak begin? Hmmmm…

Perhaps it is childhood, when trusting innocence looks to the grown-up world for love, comfort, support… compassion. And instead comes up against rules and righteous anger… a belief that miracles are fairy tales and fairy tales are make believe and make believe isn’t real… and what isn’t real really isn’t worth bothering about in the adult world; the world of grown-ups and people who know better then the children of the world.

And perhaps the ones who really know the truth are the ones who are continually silenced. And maybe all this energy for laws and politics and big business is a big waste of time…

A friend of mine told me this week that when we can really be with our own pain, then we are ready to be peacefully with others and their pain. A friend of mine was in place where his pain was unbearably difficult to hold today. I myself turned away. I have found it often difficult for me to consider him a friend and think of him as a friend. I think it might be possible that his pain resonates too strongly for me—I find it difficult to hold my own brokenness when so close to him. I’m not ready yet…

So I guess I am grateful for all of us. For it seems that where one falters, there are others there to step up…

Lean on me. We all need someone we can bleed on… and if you want to…